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M templates/index.html → templates/index.html

@@ -7,22 +7,11 @@ <p>welcome, internet stranger
 
 <p>please get comfy and stay awhile :3
 
-<p>also, excuse any weirdness on my site, i just rewrote the backend and some things are wonky.
-
-
 <p> -> scrolling skullz
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                     *whispers* hello friend                                                    hack the planet! 🌎                                                           🐡                                                                               it's a unix system. i know this.                                                                                                                                               we're all pilgrims and strangers, and nobody knows what the fuck they're doing.         never feel certain. sureness is sin.   feel good. pride. confidence. effortless. present. feel bad. doubt. anxiety. potential. past.    it's you. it's us.      we'll make it. of course. we all must make it. because       someday it'll be over. like a great big dream.    i hope we can wake up together.     and laugh at our efforts completely gone.    and gaze into each others eyes for eternity.      i want so badly to see you again.
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-<!-- TODO: re-scope the feed lister
-<p> -> posts from my friends
-{- range $feed := .Feeds }
-<li>
-<a href="{ (index .Items 0).Link }">{ (index .Items 0).Title }</a>
-</li>
-{- end }
--->
 <p> -> quote/poem selection
 <details>
   <summary>when you need hope and feel lost</summary>
@@ -31,7 +20,9 @@ nothing is going to get better. it's not.</pre>
 </details>
 <details>
   <summary>when life hurts you</summary>
-  <pre>the only way out is through</pre>
+  <pre>the only way out
+...
+is through</pre>
 </details>
 <details>
   <summary>when you remember them again, but it's okay</summary>
@@ -41,8 +32,25 @@ everything i do is stitched with its color.</pre>
 </details>
 <details>
   <summary>when you dissociate and need help grounding</summary>
-  <pre>i am the master of my fate,
-i am the captain of my soul</pre>
+  <pre>out of the night that covers me,
+      black as the pit from pole to pole,
+i thank whatever gods may be
+      for my unconquerable soul.
+
+in the fell clutch of circumstance
+      i have not winced nor cried aloud.
+under the bludgeonings of chance
+      my head is bloody, but unbowed.
+
+beyond this place of wrath and tears
+      looms but the horror of the shade,
+and yet the menace of the years
+      finds and shall find me unafraid.
+
+it matters not how strait the gate,
+      how charged with punishments the scroll,
+i am the master of my fate,
+      i am the captain of my soul.</pre>
 </details>
 <details>
   <summary>when you want to have an existential crisis and cry</summary>
@@ -90,6 +98,23 @@ </details>
 <details>
   <summary>when you feel overwhelmed by the past</summary>
   <pre>despite everything, it's still you.</pre>
+</details>
+<details>
+  <summary>when you feel alone, and need to know that you aren't. when you need to know that other people have felt the same way that you do. that your suffering is heard and echoed and felt through time and space.</summary>
+  <pre>love has gone and left me and the days are all alike;
+eat i must, and sleep i will, — and would that night were here!
+but ah! — to lie awake and hear the slow hours strike!
+would that it were day again! — with twilight near!
+
+love has gone and left me and i don't know what to do;
+this or that or what you will is all the same to me;
+but all the things that i begin i leave before i'm through, —
+there's little use in anything as far as i can see.
+
+love has gone and left me, — and the neighbors knock and borrow,
+and life goes on forever like the gnawing of a mouse, —
+and to-morrow and to-morrow and to-morrow and to-morrow
+there's this little street and this little house.</pre>
 </details>
 
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M templates/now.html → templates/now.html

@@ -4,10 +4,15 @@ {{ template "nav" . }}
 <div id="main">  
 <h1>what jes doing??? ? ??</h1>
 this is a <a href="https://nownownow.com/about">nowpage</a>, inspired by <a href="https://sive.rs/">derek sivers</a>.
-<h2>starting over again</h2>
-<p>i moved to southern virginia~
+<h2>starting over. again.</h2>
+<p>i moved to richmond virginia~
 <p>the people are different. the weather is different. the culture is different. i've never felt so out of water before - it forces me to confront fear daily.
-<p>i think that's a good thing. virginia is for lovers.
+<p>i think that's a good thing.
+<h2>dog</h2>
+<p>i got a dog called chupa, and she's helping me establish routines
+<p>chipa is a street dog that was rescued from puerto rico, near starving
+<p>i am inspired that she has lived such a hard life & was not broken by it.
+<img src="/static/chupa.jpg" width="140" alt="pic of a silly dog called chupa">
 <h2>leading with love</h2>
 <p>i was recently promoted from an engineer -> people manager.
 <p>i always resented programming for being logical and cold - my brain is not.
@@ -25,6 +30,6 @@ </ul>
 {{- end }}
 <p>these books update automatically based on my openlibrary account thanks to j3s.sh being a <a href="/thought/my-website-is-one-binary.html">dynamic website</a>.
 
-<p><small>this page was last updated on 2024-04-29</small></p>
+<p><small>this page was last updated on 2024-08-14</small></p>
 </div>
 {{ end }}