@@ -4,6 +4,11 @@ --medium-gray: #ddd;
   --gray: #6a6a6a;
 }
 
+@font-face {
+    font-family: 'DraftingMono';
+    src: url('/static/fonts/DraftingMono-Regular.woff2') format('woff2');
+}
+
 /* make sure the scrollbar is always shown so
    the width doesnt change between pages */
 html {
@@ -75,7 +80,7 @@ 
 .thoughtbody {
   font-size: min(2.5vw, 1rem);
   max-width: 80ch;
-  font-family: monospace;
+  font-family: 'DraftingMono', monospace;
   white-space: pre;
   display: block;
   width: auto;

@@ -6,21 +6,15 @@ <h1>what jes doing??? ? ??</h1>
 this is a <a href="https://nownownow.com/about">nowpage</a>, inspired by <a href="https://sive.rs/">derek sivers</a>.
 <h2>starting over. again.</h2>
 <p>i moved to richmond virginia~
-<p>the people are different. the weather is different. the culture is different. i've never felt so out of water before - it forces me to confront fear daily.
-<p>i think that's a good thing.
-<h2>dog</h2>
-<p>i got a dog called chupa, and she's helping me establish routines
-<p>chipa is a street dog that was rescued from puerto rico, near starving
-<p>i am inspired that she has lived such a hard life & was not broken by it.
-<p><img src="/static/chupa.jpg" width="140" alt="pic of a silly dog called chupa">
-<h2>leading with love</h2>
-<p>i was recently promoted from an engineer -> people manager.
-<p>i always resented programming for being logical and cold - my brain is not.
-<p>my thoughts are soft, chaotic, feeling. i was born with my empathy in overdrive. my anxiety, too.
-<p>i love growing people. i love taking pain for others.
-<p>i love nearly everyone i talk to.
-<p>i hope this doesn't kill me.
-<h2>reading a few books</h2>
+<p>the people are different. the weather is different.
+<p>the culture is different. i've never felt so much fear.
+<h2>resolution</h2>
+<p>resolving my layers of dissonance.
+<h2>back to engineering</h2>
+<p>i tried managing people for a year
+<p>i honestly think that i nearly died
+<p>reminder to my future self: do not do this again.
+<h2>currently reading</h2>
 {{- range $entry := .Data.CurrentBooks.ReadingLogEntries }}
 <ul>
     <li>
@@ -30,6 +24,6 @@ </ul>
 {{- end }}
 <p>these books update automatically based on my openlibrary account thanks to j3s.sh being a <a href="/thought/my-website-is-one-binary.html">dynamic website</a>.
 
-<p><small>this page was last updated on 2024-08-14</small></p>
+<p><small>this page was last updated on 2025-01-01</small></p>
 </div>
 {{ end }}

@@ -0,0 +1,41 @@ 
+              Digital
+    ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⣀⣀⡀⠒⠒⠦⣄⡀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
+    ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⣤⣶⡾⠿⠿⠿⠿⣿⣿⣶⣦⣄⠙⠷⣤⡀⠀⠀⠀⠀
+    ⠀⠀⠀⣠⡾⠛⠉⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠈⠙⠻⣿⣷⣄⠘⢿⡄⠀⠀⠀
+    ⠀⢀⡾⠋⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠐⠂⠠⢄⡀⠈⢿⣿⣧⠈⢿⡄⠀⠀
+    ⢀⠏⠀⠀⠀⢀⠄⣀⣴⣾⠿⠛⠛⠛⠷⣦⡙⢦⠀⢻⣿⡆⠘⡇⠀⠀
+    ⠀⠀⠀⠀⡐⢁⣴⡿⠋⢀⠠⣠⠤⠒⠲⡜⣧⢸⠄⢸⣿⡇⠀⡇⠀⠀
+    ⠀⠀⠀⡼⠀⣾⡿⠁⣠⢃⡞⢁⢔⣆⠔⣰⠏⡼⠀⣸⣿⠃⢸⠃⠀⠀
+    ⠀⠀⢰⡇⢸⣿⡇⠀⡇⢸⡇⣇⣀⣠⠔⠫⠊⠀⣰⣿⠏⡠⠃⠀⠀⢀
+    ⠀⠀⢸⡇⠸⣿⣷⠀⢳⡈⢿⣦⣀⣀⣀⣠⣴⣾⠟⠁⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⡎
+    ⠀⠀⠘⣷⠀⢻⣿⣧⠀⠙⠢⠌⢉⣛⠛⠋⠉⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣠⠎⠀
+    ⠀⠀⠀⠹⣧⡀⠻⣿⣷⣄⡀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⣠⡾⠃⠀⠀
+    ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠈⠻⣤⡈⠻⢿⣿⣷⣦⣤⣤⣤⣤⣤⣴⡾⠛⠉⠀⠀⠀⠀
+    ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠈⠙⠶⢤⣈⣉⠛⠛⠛⠛⠋⠉⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
+    ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠉⠉⠉⠁⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
+              Abyss
+
+ ==================================
+
+   i believe that wikis are ideal
+   life companions.
+
+   imagine a wiki for you.
+   only you.
+
+   take away the expectations,
+   the sorting, the collaboration
+
+   take away the thought
+   that everything you write
+   must be finished, or true
+
+   if a blog is a digital storefront
+   a perfect place,
+   pristine and tailored,
+
+   is a wiki a garden?
+   with sprouts to mend and
+   weeds to prune?
+
+